For those of you who have been following the blog for a while, you know that I’ve been trying to lose weight now for a few months. I’ve been successful with it too…until now. This is tough to admit but I think I’m gonna call it quits on my weight loss journey. It has nothing to do with not being strong willed enough or not having enough self control to stick with it. The honest truth is that I really feel my body is telling me to stop.
I started my weight loss endeavors this pass May (so it’s been about 2 1/2 months now). In total I’ve lost 10 pounds. Let me just start off by saying that that was the slowest I’ve ever lost weight. I’ve written before how I’ve lost 40 pounds in the past when I was at my heaviest. And I was able to lose that so quickly, like it was nobody’s business. But when it came to these 10 pounds, it took forever. Let me tell you why I think that is.
In doing some research, I came across a theory that I agree with. It is called the “set point theory”. It basically states that all of us have a certain set point for our weight, a certain weight that our bodies feel is healthy for us and will fight to maintain. Just like we are all predisposed to having a certain height (thanks to our genetics) the same can be said for our weight. So if your family (like mine) tends to be on the curvier side, chances are you will too and vice versa if your family is on the thinner side. Now it is possible to still lose the weight but you may have to go to drastic measures to do so and to then maintain that weight loss.
I have been the same weight now for years. I eat healthy, workout each and every week, and my body has always been happy at this same weight. It has always been easy to maintain. When I started my weight loss journey in May, I was 10 pounds heavier. So when I started eating less and counting calories, it didn’t feel hard at all. My body didn’t struggle with it. But now that I’ve reached my set point weight again, my body is suddenly acting as if it’s starving. I constantly feel hungry everyday. Even though I’m eating the same amount, suddenly my body is demanding that I feed it more.
I am a strong believer in listening to your body. I feel that our body’s know what’s best and will try to alert you when something’s not right. So when my body started sending me these constant hunger signals, I was conflicted. I really wanted to listen to my body but I also wanted to continue losing weight. Ultimately, I decided though that I needed to listen to my body. Our bodies don’t care whether or not we look like an Instagram model or like a certain celebrity’s bikini body. Our bodies are concerned about our health and well being. I just thought to myself too that sure, I could fight my body to lose this weight but at what cost? Developing an eating disorder? And I’m not saying that for anyone trying to lose weight, it’ll just end up in an eating disorder. No, not at all. I’m just saying for myself personally, it was so clear that my body was fighting me on losing this weight. It was going to do what was necessary to keep me at what it felt was already a healthy weight.
I have lost some more weight in the past too. But immediately my body gained it all back even though I was eating healthy and doing everything as I should have. And maybe I could’ve kept it off if I had been tracking my calories, but I’m sorry I don’t want to focus on calories for the rest of my life. I don’t want everything I do to be dictated by calories. I don’t want to constantly worry about whether or not I’m “allowed” to eat something every time I sit down for a meal. And I don’t want to have to worry about trying to maintain this “perfect” weight. Life is just worth so much more than being a certain size or weight. I want to enjoy life and time with friends and family and not stress about food. And ultimately that’s what my decision came down to. I didn’t want to allow food, dieting, and weight loss to control my life. I was meant for bigger things than that.
I hope my experience has helped you in some way. This was not easy to admit to millions of people since I know some will judge harshly. But it’s honestly what I felt was best for my body. I am going to love my body as it is, nourish it, and care for it with love. It’s done nothing but amazing things for me, including giving birth to my beautiful baby girl. Hopefully this has helped you to see that your life is worth so much more than attaining a certain body. I am all for losing weight for health reasons but when it comes to just vanity weight loss, it’s just not worth it in my opinion. I hope you give your body the love it deserves.